I’ve been going to church for my whole life. (When I talk about church in this post, I am referring to the physical building, not the actual people that create the worldwide church.) I was born and raised in a Christian home and my parents really stressed to me and my brothers the importance of not only going to Sunday services, but being involved and volunteering at church as well. And while I am so appreciate and thankful that I was given that solid foundation for my life from them, I never really understood why it mattered until recently.
Sometime around freshman year of high school, I began to drift away from church. For the most part I still went to youth group on Wednesdays and services on Sunday, but I felt no desire to be there, and mentally I was checked out most of the time I was there. After a youth group trip my sophomore year, my heart changed a bit and I began to feel more connected to it, but after a few months, I was right back to being bitter and distant when it came to church. Eventually, when I had my own car and the ability to choose my own schedule I ended up going less and less. I went back and forth between two youth groups, and often just skipped completely.
And I saw nothing wrong with that. I had solid Christian friends, I knew all the “Christian answers”, I could pray in front of adults and sound like I was wise beyond my years, and I was overall a good kid. In my mind, I didn’t need to be involved in a Christian community, and I didn’t need the teaching or fellowship that it would have provided. I was fine on my own. After a while, I noticed the changes in my life that came from my self-imposed isolation. I had no accountability, and my choices reflected that. I had become calloused and cold, with no desire to follow God or to pursue a relationship with Him. I could fake it when I needed to, sure, but I felt so completely far away from Christ and like I was so utterly alone.
I blamed this feeling it on everything but myself. I blamed it on my family, I blamed it on my schedule, I blamed it on my friends, I blamed it on my relationship, anything to make sure that I wasn’t the one at fault. Most of all I blamed it on God. I didn’t want to admit what I knew in my heart; I was the one who walked away. I was the one who chose to turn away from a passionate pursuit of Jesus. I had decided that I would rather have what I wanted now then do the will of the almighty God. He hadn’t given up on me, I had decided that He wasn’t worth it. And I believe that decision began when I chose to stop going to church.
About a year ago I got to a point in my life where I realized that He was worth it. He is the only thing that is worth it. I had wandered away from Him and I realized that nothing I had pursued was even close to Him and nothing could fill the emptiness that I was feeling. I needed to get back to Him, and I knew that would begin with getting back to a consistent routine of going to church. I started calling Veritas my home church last June. My first few months there I felt out of place and nervous, because I didn’t know anyone there really, and I felt like I wasn’t good enough to be there. But at the same time that I felt those things, I could tell that I was growing.
Over the past year, God has revealed to me just how lost I was, and how lost I still would be without Him, but He has also shown me the beauty and simplicity of His grace in a new way that I never understood before. In Jeremiah 29, God says, “..Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” While this was said to exiles thousands of years ago, our God never changes, and I believe that this promise is still true today. God honors our desires to find Him and to come to Him. He wants to be found by us and known by us. However, we have to pursue Him. We have to earnestly seek Him and call to Him, and put effort into our relationship with Him. We have to honor Him and obey Him as Lord and Savior, and that includes following His commands. Over and over in the Bible, we see the importance of being a part of the church, both on a global and local scale. In fact the majority of the New Testament is instructions for how the church should work. I believe that being involved in the church is an essential and important part of being Christian.
I think that my generation specifically has a problem with the way churches in America are. For myself, and many people I know, the church was not a safe place for us growing up. Many of us felt judged, left out, or like the people were hypocritical and fake. I don’t say this to be offensive, I say this because it is a very real reason that people my age are leaving the church. And while I believe that this is a big issue in many American churches, and it’s a lot of the reason I stopped going to church, this is not a justification for leaving the church. It’s just not. For a long time, I didn’t want to take responsibility for the fact that as a member of the church, I needed to be contributing to the solution, not just complaining about the problems of the church.
In Romans 12, Paul writes (about the body of Christ, the church,)
“For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully. Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.”
The whole point of the body of Christ is to be in community with each other, leading each other in spiritual growth towards Him, serving each other, and reflecting the eternal community of worship the global church will experience in heaven one day. Without being involved in a community, we are not functioning as the body and as the community that God intended us to be a part of. When we withdraw from the local church, we ignore one of God’s primary intended purposes for us as Christians, and we ignore many of His commandments.
Since actively and purposefully committing to a local church, I have experienced more spiritual growth than any other time in my life. I have learned more about what the gospel truly is, how it should be impacting my life, and how to interact with others in the way God intended. There’s been many Sunday mornings that I would much rather just sleep in or have a late pancake breakfast than get up and go to church, but I have seen how God has changed my heart since I gave up even just one morning a week for Him. He has helped my heart keep more of a consistent focus on Him throughout the week, not just on Sundays, and He has changed the desires I have to be, I believe, more in line with His own desires.
I’m not promising that if you go to church every week, you will see instant spiritual growth in your life, but I am promising that God is faithful to who He says that He is, He can be found and known, and that He wants nothing more than for us to pursue Him with our whole hearts. He wants us to give Him every part of our lives, and I believe that includes following His commands and becoming a part of the local church.